another night. another night of moments where life can go suck some balls. no can have fun and have privacy can they?

so here I am, angry and crying. missing everything that was totally fine. wishing sometimes I was never alive. it's so annoying cause of you. you ruin everything; my life, my friends, my school, my everything. take it out on me like I'm just some bullshit from timbaktoo. useless and don't know what to do. I try to enjoy my time on earth but you simply like to ruin it. ruin it. you think I'm stupid, yeah I cN be sometimes but you haven't seen the other side of me when your around. I get older each day, wiser as I go but you just treat like bullshit. you scare me since I was small. you seriously just make me want to give up on life. I want to sleep and never wake up.